When Leaving Is Really Arriving

I quit my job.  

And if you’re like most people, you probably assume that I have another job lined up with a looming start date staring me in the face. 


That scenario couldn’t be further from the truth. Instead, I’m taking some time off to plan my next adventure. (I told a few people that I was taking a sabbatical to be a stay-at-home chicken mom. In a way, I guess that’s true.) 

How did I arrive at this decision, you ask? As with many things in life, we often come to a place where we just know it’s time to move on. For me, it’s always been something I feel from an inward place. A restlessness. My heart was the first to sense it and by the time my inner whispers had turned into shouting pleas, I knew it was time to go.

You know that whole thing about trusting your instincts? Yeah, it’s real. Listen.

But, seriously, how do you know when it’s time to walk away from one thing and toward another? When you begin to spend more of your time thinking about what else life has in store for you…it’s time. 

The truth is, sometimes you have to quit things to start new things.

You have to leave in order to arrive. You have to push yourself into those uncomfortable situations to learn new things and to grow. 

The most difficult part about my decision was the realization that I would also be leaving an amazing team that I was blessed to have an opportunity to work with. On my last day, they presented me with this framed word cloud–a collection of words my team felt best described me. It is one of the most heart-felt gifts I’ve ever received, and I only hope that I will be able to live up to those inspiring words. This is the last email that I sent to them, and I hope they know what an impact they’ve had on my life.

Hello Dear Friends,

There are no words to fully express what my heart is feeling today. I am both excited about what the future holds, and saddened to be closing a chapter of my life that includes such an incredible group of talented individuals. Before I go, though, I want to share a few words that will hopefully serve to remind you just how amazing you are on a day that feels particularly challenging…

You are powerful beyond measure.
Seriously. Honestly. You are. You have totally surpassed my expectations of what I thought this team would be capable of when I accepted this role two years and 5 months ago, and your passion and dedication are the very reasons why this program has been a success. When Jen sent this video out to our team roughly 3 years ago, it gave me goose bumps. It still does today.

You are mentally tough.
I’ve never quite fully grasped the term resilience. I mean, I know it refers to our bounciness and the ability to deal with what life throws our way, but I’ve never really liked it that much. I much prefer mental toughness–maybe just because it sounds more fun–but either way, you are the essence of those words in so many ways. You are flexible, accommodating, service-oriented, determined, problem-solving individuals. You don’t sweat the small stuff. You roll with both change and resistance. You make adjustments when you need to. You see the bigger picture. I have never worked with a stronger team and I have never been more impressed by another group of women.

You are scary-smart.
The amount of knowledge that exists among you is frightening. All of you have differing areas of interest and passion, and you share that knowledge with one another constantly. I bet collectively, people could find health information more quickly by asking one of you than by searching the internet. Seriously.

You live your values and principles.
You walk the walk. You show people how it’s done. You sympathize when they struggle with the idea of trying new things. You give them courage to explore their potential to achieve their goals. You encourage them to keep trying (and keep trying and keep trying and…). You experience their frustrations with them. And in some cases you may be one of the only positive, supportive individuals in their lives.

You are models of gratitude.
Your gestures of gratitude do not go unnoticed. The kind notes you send to your teammates, the encouraging and supportive words you express to your participants, the way you do it with absolute authenticity…it’s a gift. It’s something that others don’t just see with their eyes, they feel it within them.

You are a blessing to the lives of others.
Having the opportunity to work with all of you has been both an honor and a blessing. I wish you all the best as you continue to grow in your careers and I know that you will do great things. You’ve just scratched the surface…

While leaving has been bittersweet, my hope is that I will be able to create more space to breathe, to live in the moment and live more intently. Plans are already starting to come together, in fact. Isn’t it amazing what you can accomplish if you give yourself enough room?!?

If you are starting to hear those whispers…feeling restless…daydreaming about what your heart is telling you it wants to do more of…then read on. Living Upp is a place that I wish existed many times throughout my life as I’ve faced difficult decisions. 

When you find a trail that looks beautifully aligned with your heart, it’s okay to explore it.

I am certainly not an authority on anything but my own life, but I am giving you permission to give yourself permission to do the same. Are you ready?